Wednesday, November 29, 2006
hi again im probably tokin to the wall again. aniwaes i beleive my dear gt read.
this post i hope my friends would see. buddies of dsjab.
aniwaes for those hu dunoe them they are my best friends if not the onli close friends i had in secondary sch.
aniwaes i seems that im alwaes zhu dong organising things but actually im not. i noe im a proud person, and i dun rely noe how to zhu dong to organise activities or wa thing. like sensitive issues i will put up a bo chup face, even though i rely wan to noe whats happening. u can sae im too proud to ask but mayb is tt im too shy?
aniwaes we had been very close
as in now we are not tt close mainly cuz of me?
i cant n wun find ani excuses but guys i dun mean it
btw it seems like it has been back to the old times whr i listen to wa u all are saeing and gt nth to participate in. and i responded as was last time juz listen cuz i duno n dun dare to. again maybe im too proud or shy?
im no longer wa i was
im living dae by dae
i noe my dear will definitely feel bad abt this but i aso dun dare to tell them straight.
dear im sori i nv did blame u and nv was there need to blame u
aniwaes guys its not that i duwan to spend time with u but i do have my problems. mayb weekdaes can go out??? lol at nite mah more fun lol
lol alvin would sae or mok rather would sae each family has their own probs n all the serious decisions in life ting.
aniwaes back to my viewers if theres ani
the situation now is tense though i dismiss it cooly cuz i duwan it to seems tt i have aso given up. which i have not. as in we are drifted apart and all those, u guys can figure the rest
aniwaes i knew from the start of the conversation the whole ting abt me, juz tt i wan u guys to spell it out. and to give me some time to aprehend or rather to tink.
one thought? do anione understands me?
lol i once went for palm reading. its said im influenced easily by others and tt im a lan hao ren, meaning u all can tink urself i wun sae much and the most impt point is tt, i dun tell others wa i tink but i expect ppl to noe abt me, when they dun i will blame them, y they duno. like wa my dear said silent expectation or juz remain stagnant.
when encountered with probs as such with friends and relationship, i duno wa to do, im not socialble, n tinks alot(the palm reader said tt too) n i will choose to stay away to avoid conflict or rather run away if u phrase it in another way n hoping everytin will be fine. which i noe will not be.
aniwaes im tired le .
tml 8 sia IS 8 leh. lol
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